Being Tonka Tough

The unremarkable life of an average girl (in real time)

how the hell does this cabinet still smell like you? I threw out half the shit in it forever ago!

Why does your stink linger on everything in this god damn room. It honestly makes me nauseous whenever I catch a whiff. disgusting spicy sweetness. The worst. I need to light some incense. 

I am seriously not gonna drink for awhile. I dont know what the fuck broke before but now I am just in a foul mood. Its from being in this stupid room, in this town. I am just counting the days I can get the fuck out of this state and go back home to school.

best.

best.

(Source: whovianistic)

its 6:18… partys not till 7:30… welp, this is just like me. Get all excited to get ready I start 2 hours early and end up all dressed up and fancy with an hour an a half left… womp. In other news, I decided a hungover 5k is better than spending this party sober. I am so pumped I cant handle life. 

its 6:18… partys not till 7:30… welp, this is just like me. Get all excited to get ready I start 2 hours early and end up all dressed up and fancy with an hour an a half left… womp. In other news, I decided a hungover 5k is better than spending this party sober. I am so pumped I cant handle life. 

why the fuck is it when I search fiesta I get a shit ton of porn?! What the hell tumblr?? Whatever. Going to have a great night tonight!! hell to the yes.

why the fuck is it when I search fiesta I get a shit ton of porn?! What the hell tumblr?? Whatever. Going to have a great night tonight!! hell to the yes.

today, even breathing exhausts me.

knowyourmeme:

$C1ENCE
KYMdb - Swag

knowyourmeme:

$C1ENCE

KYMdb - Swag

well la di fucking da.

Looks like I cant drink tonight. I have to run a 5K tomorrow morning. That means I have to be home by 7am. That means I have to wake up at 6am. fuck me. 

When its 1:30 in the morning and you cant sleep because brain wont shut the fuck up because you took a pill today because your mother has been really stressed at work and your dad quit smoking and your depression frustrates them and you had so much stuff to do you absolutely had to be productive today, and god knows you cant be productive unless you take some god damn meds because your ADD has gotten so bad you cant even eat a whole meal without getting up or forgetting half way through or getting so distracted you dont even remember that you havent had anything to eat or drink the past 23 hours and you cant eat now because its too late but you are so hungry and your face is broken out because its so fucking hot and all you do is fucking sweat and you cant cool down your room because if you open the door the dogs will chew on something, so you wander around your room waiting for this to stop listening to episodes of Dead Like Me that you’ve already watched and trying to find something to wear to a party tomorrow but no matter what you try on you cant find anything that looks half way decent because you are having a fat day because you know you gained weight this past semester because you spent half of it crying and sleeping and not getting out of bed and eating bread and candy because it was the only thing within reach and now you are just pissed off and tired and you dont want to do anything anymore because it all just fucking sucks because no matter what you do nothing is ever fucking right with the god damned world and no matter how many motherfucking pills you take you will always get distracted and walk away from a task or fail to complete something again and your mother will yell at you and ask whats wrong with you and why cant you just finish a job, and when you dont take anything it drives her crazy but if you do take something she asks why you are acting so medicated because she doesn’t understand that you cant just flip back and forth whenever you want like everyone else can you are either one or the other and you never know how long it will last or how the day is gonna be but when you wake up that morning you have to make that decision weather or not you want to have fun and laugh or be productive because there is no fucking in between and even though thats just the way shit is and its just the way its always been it still fucking sucks a whole lot but you know it doesn’t even fucking matter so there is no use in whining about it so you just wander around in your room while your brain goes and does its thing while you just go along for the ride and think to yourself why is it so fucking hot in this room.

tonight is a great night.

Because I have officially returned to my negative pressure fish tank project. Over a year in the making, slowly coming together…

do either of those particle collisions have names? or are they just “particle collision A” and “particle collision B”?

The black one is just a diagram, not actually a specific collision. The white one is a collision in a bubble chamber. If you would like to see more collisions in the bubble chamber this is a cool site to check out: http://www.levitated.net/p5/chamber/gallery.html

I am always never surprised yet totally amazed whenever i look at this stuff. The patterns of the quarks are probably my favorite. 

ALICE  is the only collision I know by name

I need a 2’ diameter perfectly cylindrical object.

And a rather large oven. 

Does anyone have any ideas?

[the oven thing isnt really a problem. I know where to go for that.]

firstactloadedgun:

The TARDIS Tickler.
I kind of love the world.

so… this is a thing…

firstactloadedgun:

The TARDIS Tickler.

I kind of love the world.

so… this is a thing…

now I want 3 tattoos. Kill me now.

#1 inside of my right middle finger.

#2 back location still up in the air. Done in either white ink or backlight.

   

 (or)   

3) inside left ankle, juts behind bone. (v. small)

all over the span of my life, in this order spanning from when I get my undergrad degree. (anchor might be sooner.)

Revelation? Revelation.

I have decided I am done with sitting around pouting that I dont have anyone to adventure with. I am also done with trying to find people to go on adventures with. There was a time where I would go out with my ipod and just wander. I would go through towns, and woods and every place. I would meet people and discover things I would have never otherwise known about. And I did all of this alone. Just because I am alone doesn’t mean I have to sit around by myself planning a list of fun places to go and exciting things to do for when I find someone to adventure with. That kind of breaks the rules of adventuring. I had a life before I had a boyfriend and my boyfriend wasn’t that great. I dont know why it took me so long to remember I can do whatever the fuck I want again. I’m a big kid, I dont need a chaperone. And if I just sit around here like I have been doing I am just gonna get really fat and they’ll never let me skipper, and in the end, thats what life is all about right? No? woops. :)

we’re just like you except we’re hot.

we’re just like you except we’re hot.